Dont Mind Me, I'm Just Spilling My Guts

I’ll make you AND me happy and just leave. I can’t wait to go back to school in the oc

Okay so she asks me to come early to help when she’s been talking fucking shit. I can’t wait till this is over so I can stop kissing your ass

Crazy Freak: let me tell you something, if your THAT miserable then leave. If you were my daughter then I wouldn’t give a fuck about some competition season or some stupid show. I wouldn’t choose that over your misery.

Me(thinking): you don’t know shit. I’m not miserable. You don’t know what I’m going through. At all. Go suck it.

Me(actually speaking): I’lljust wait it out ok

Me: I already made my final decision

Mom: You know your quitting the one thing your good at.

Me: Here’s the thing, I’m not though..

I know your gonna fucking hate me in a week more then you already do now but I had a long talk with you back in February, and I been thinking a lot about what you said. And yea your right, danceing isn’t for me. But even though dance isn’t for me I still love it. Because without it, I don’t know what else to do in life. I guess I just suck at life you can say. Anyways, yea, I’m giving up. To be a dance teacher is my dream, but I don’t think for ME in particular going to this studio will make me into one. Yes, I have learned a lot since I first went to the studio. Yes, I do give you credit for my technical ability as it is right now. But I guess its my time to leave. I feel if I stay I’m just gonna frustrate you and myself more and more. So thank you for everything, thank you for being my coach and thank you for believing in me at some point. I wish everyone to go further as a dancer and I hope competition turns out well. Goodbye.

Dear Person I Hate, pretty soon I will be going my separate way. And I wish your “place” the best. I may hate you but I’m saying honestly and respectfully, I will miss you soon.

Dear Person I Like, I know we live far, but I still like you. I know I never see you, but I stilllike you. I think your like the sunshine of my life. You make me smile when I’m ever with you. And I hope.one day we can.have something.

Dear Ex Boyfriend, still to this day I know I never meant shit. I know you cared but I don’t see the point of us being together in the first place. I just torn down. And my life is a mess because of you. Your cocky, stupid and you think your the shit. But a part of me still loves you. And I fucking hate it. Do me a favor and just shoot me. Because I’m already dead inside as it is.I can go on and on. But I’d rather just shut up and save you time. Good luck in your life,and I truly mean it.

Dear Ex Best Friend, I personally DON’T hate you. I genuinely like you. But I guess things change and people change, life changes and sadly I’m not okay with that. I don’t know why you did what you did. But its all in the past and there’s just a lot of bull shit that has to be resolved

Dear Best Friend, You are probably one of the most beautiful, and nicest girl I’ve ever met. We’veboth been through a lot in our lives. From heartbreaks, to cutting, to suicidal actions to getting on the road to self destruction. We’veboth been through it all and that’s a.main reason why were so close. I’d never trade you for anyone. You saved my life. You showed me that someone DOES care about you and that life goes on. Thank you.

Me: “You know me. You know I never talk. You know I like to keep to myself. This is the one time I’m actually saying this and I mean it and you know that”

Him: “I know.”

Me: “’*thinking* you totally fucking destroyed me’ ….. Ok.”