October 2011
23 posts
Well, as you can see on my profile, i have depression, bipolar and aneixety.
it really is a struggle to live with, people think its just a few down moments here and there but its much more than that.
Imagine:
Feeling empty all your life with no reason
The feeling when you bring people down all the time.
Crying every other night and you dont know why.
Having to take medication that your embaressed to talk about.
The need to commit suicide because you feel like everyone is better off with out you or theres no point in living.
Looking in the mirror, thinking your pretty, then all of a sudden you think “I’m retarted. I’m obviously the exact opposite.
Getting emotional over every little thing but you cant help yourself.
Hating yourself. Constantly
Cutting youself, or giving yourself self-harm because you feel like you deserve it. and that pain is better then the pain you feel inside.
You mentally cant do anything somethimes.
You constantly need to be alone to give yourself a relapse.
Listening to music because thats the only thing that understand you.
Telling people “im fine” when your really dying inside
The feeling that your gonna lose everyone you have.
Having no one to understand you.
i have my moments, i do. a lot. i pretend like its not there. sometimes i wanna cry in public but i learned to hold it in.
Thankfully there are things that help: dance. dance is probably one of the most things that make me feel like myself.
“Don’t worry about it, because life goes on.” -Jon Walker
If you are feeling suicidal now, please stop long enough to read this. It will only take about five minutes. I do not want to talk you out of your bad feelings. I am not a therapist or other mental health professional - only someone who knows what it is like to be in pain.
I don’t know who you…
Mars :b